Cleared...

It has been a long wait, closed to 2 months. When I received the March schedule for courses of ACCA, I knew that the time can come. The result has been released. I have to say, I wasn't confident at all. This is my first papers, and I hope to get off to a good start. It was really not easy to juggle between earning enuff money for the next semester, spending enuff quallity time with my gf and doing well for my exams. After the papers, I thought I was gg to retake at least 1 paper, quite disappointed, but I din dwell on it too much and just enjoyed myself since the results will only be out later and I've done my best.

When I logged in to the website, it confirmed my suspicion. "Exam results for Dec 2007". Judgement day. I can't remember when was the last time I did well for my exams (maybe 'O' levels??), I was quite scared. Anxiety filled me as I slowly entered my ID and password. I din click "enter" until I took a deep breathe. I stared long and hard at the screen before I relaxed. I passed all my papers. I can't tell u how relieved I was at the moment. I wanted to share with my gf, who has been supportive of me all these while, but she's asleep in Spain and I din wan to wake her up. I was like smiling to myself retardedly....haha. Actually the papers wasn't that tough, all MCQs, but I still have a lot of pride to have completed the first part of ACCA. It was a tremendous boost to my confidence. I have got to get it right.

My results were average. around 60-70%. First surprise was that I cleared the papers, second surprise was that I actually scored the highest for my lousiest subject. Ended up I fare the worst for the subject I was most confident in. Over-confident ya? Well, I dun care anyway, this calls for a celebration! However, I have to wait till my ulcers clear first before I can truly enjoy myself. Everything is right on schedule. Now I'm ready for part 2.

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂
(quoted from the song 第一天 by 孙燕姿)

Questions...

1. Why would u want to disappoint ur love one on a special occasion?
2. Why is it so hard to even accept a small request?
3. Why am I feeling like this?
4. When will I ever not feel this way?
5. Why can't she be like other ppl?
6. Have I made her feel like I'm too "safe"?
7. Would she worry if I do the same thing on Valentine's Day?
8. Did she ever consider how I will feel?
9. Is it all about trust?
10. Are u sure u love me more than I love u?

I'm tired. Disappointed. Perhaps something u can never understand.

I need a drink.

快乐我哭是因为我付出
得到你温柔的答覆
难过我哭是因为我认输
你的心永远留不住
(quoted from the song 好眼泪坏眼泪 by 徐若瑄)

A simple request...

Some questions only have 1 right answer. Any other answer is simple unacceptable. Especially when it is regarding ur faith. Sorry, wrong answer.

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Has someone taken your faith? Its real, the pain you feel... (quoted from the song Best of You by Foo Fighters)

Happy CNY...

Recently I'm not happy. Even though it is CNY, I can't get myself excited at all. The mood this year feels different. The fact that I have to work during CNY is quite a turn-off. Sigh, no choice, the pay is good. I got even more money from the 2 days than the 4 days i went around collecting Ang Baos.

I have to say, work is getting suckier and suckier(hmm... i wonder if there is such a word). Now, I can conclude that my current job has NO JOB SATISFACTION, NO PAY INCREMENT, NO BONUS, NO WELFARE, and makes me have NO LIFE and NO SLEEP. Sucks. Does anybody has any "lobang" on good part time jobs?? Sigh... there's increasing discontentment among staffs at the work place, but the management is either ignorant or unwilling to do anything to improve the situation. I'm seriously thinking of forming an union or simple go on strike. I'm sure a lot of ppl will follow me.

Recently my baby complained to me that im neglecting her. I'm so sorry. It is really not my choice. The whole wide world knows that I love her more than anything in this world, so I really never mean to make her feel that way. =( She has been gone for 1 month already, and throughout this 4 weeks, the number of times I can talk to her is really limited. Long distance relationship is really quite frustrating at times. However, I'll treat this as a test!! I will survive!!!

Been visiting these few days cos of CNY. Managed to catch up with a number of frens and relatives. Most of my relatives looked the same, except for my younger cousins who grew bigger and less cute. Most of my frens are either graduated or graduating, makes me feel like I'm lagging behind badly. Damn. Need to work MUCH harder.

Baby i still believe
我也可以走过峦流
紧紧握住双手
一秒就够
不孤单寂寞
Baby i still believe
爱要有梦才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中 到永久
(quoted from the song I still believe by 徐若瑄 & 曹格)