Comfort...

The doctor says my heart is beating too fast, faster than a normal heart rate should be. Yet I can't feel my heart at all. I thought I'm dead, but the pain and tears made me feel that I'm still very much alive. I need comfort. I need help. Whatever you have been doing, it's working, keep it going. Once it is crushed, and all my hopes are gone, everything will be over. For you and for me. More ruthlessness. I understand that that is not ur intention, really. Time is supposed to heal, but it's funny how I ended up feeling more pain with each passing day. Perhaps once it has reached a maximum point, it will start to get better. I wonder when will that be.

教我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说 怎么说都是错
(quoted from the song 爱要怎么说出口 by 赵传)