Crazy...

I think I'm gg crazy these few days. Probably becos I'm thinking and expecting too much. Somethings made me wonder and question the logic behind most things. It doesn't matter how long u know someone, 5 days or 2 months, usually u will only remember those with u recently. It doesn't matter what promise u makes, once forgotten, it is gone. Money also doesn't really matter as long as the amount isn't large and that u are rich enough. Well... I think I'm too stubborn at times. Too inflexible to consider other options or possibilities, always sticking to the conventional methods or ways things are supposed to function. I need to adapt to changes and always come up with a plan B or even plan C. Things wun always end up the way I want. I need to stop being an idealist.

There are times when one has to make some sacrifice. Sometimes even forgoing something which u want dearly. As long as I think it is worth it, I'm willing to sacrifice my everything, to even die for that something that is close to my heart. Sounds crazy enough, but that's what I'll really do. Will u do the same for someone or something close to u? How much are u willing to sacrifice? Then again, the valuation of the "worth" of anything is subjective. One might find it important, the other might think it is trivia. Although I'm willing to do all the sacrifice, it doesn't mean that I'm happy abt it at all. My selfish self will always cause me to feel unhappy abt it. My mind will always be asking me why I have to do all these sacrifice and not maintain or insist on doing things the way I want. Sometimes, it is out of love. I love her too much to make her feel sad. Shall learn to control my emotions and learn to be more cold blooded.

I felt much better now. Suddenly everything becomes clear. I know what to do already. I need to be myself.

You got that certain something. What you give to me, takes my breath away. Now the word out on the street, is the devil's in your kiss. If our love goes up in flames, it's a fire I can't resist... (quoted from the song Crying by Aerosmith)

Strange...

Being feeling like shit these few days. Felt as if something is wrong. I should have been feeling happy today, but yet I feel so alone. Not that I actually care abt this occasion ever in the past, but dunno why, it affected me quite a lot now. How ironic... At first, I'm too used to being alone. Now, I'm too used to being with her. Sigh... wonder what's happening to me. Seems like I'm losing all my strength. And what am I doing in hall the past few days?? The more I stay, the more sad I feel. Should have gone home these few days.

Well, let's just say I'm not good with words. Can't get the message I want her to know across. Ultimately, I just want to tell her that I really miss her. I hope she understands...

But I'm not too sure how I'm supposed to feel, or what I'm supposed to say. But I'm not, not sure, not too sure how it feels, to handle every day and I miss you love... (quoted from the song Miss you love by Silverchair)

Hello...

Haven't touched this space for more than a month, I wonder how many ppl still visit my blog...haha!! Basically I have nothing much to update or write on my blog also. Studies is as shit as ever, work is still as slack, life is still so boring, and my girlfriend is still as loving. I thought life wil be much slacker after the World Cup, oh man I was wrong... After the World Cup, I still have so many FOC stuff to do!! Now I'll rather work, at least I'm earning some income.

Bought 2 hamsters recently for my girlfriend on her birthday. Actually not very recent, but due to the fact that I didn't update, so it is 'recent'. Still can't come up with a name for them because we still can't tell the gender of them. You may be thinking that I'm stupid or what, so long already still dunno that, however, that's because they are damn bloody fast!! Supposed to be the fastest breed of hamster. I tried feeding them with food, thinking that when they grow fatter they will be easier to catch, oh well.... let's just say they need to grow even FATTER.

I wonder when is my pay coming. Supposed to have earned quite a bit since working for so long. If it is still not coming soon, I'll have to stat eating my hamsters' food or start chewing on grass soon. WHEN IS MY PAY COMING?!?!?!? Urgh~

Shall post some pictures soon...

'Cause you don't need nobody to make it on your own, you dont need nobody you'd rather be alone. So Jimmy gets high tonight. And Jimmy gets high tonight... (quoted from the song Jimmy gets high by Daniel Powter)