Toad...

Croak, croak, croak...
Swimming here and there.
Wall, wall, wall...
The only thing I see.
Wait, wait, wait...
Praying for food to come.
Stare, stare, stare...
Out at the bright blue sky.
Bored, bored, bored...
Tired of my life.
Wonder, wonder, wonder...
How's life in the world out there.
Hope, hope, hope...
Waiting for a chance.
Jump, jump, jump...
Out of this humdrum place.

长马褂白围巾 徐志摩看的星星
这夜色有点张爱玲 冷空气暖着心
一直想告诉你 我有多么的爱你
只是春天过了夏天 因为你懂了幸福多安静
(quoted from the song 张爱玲 by 品冠)

Limit...

Bloody irritated.
Hate to be compared with other people.
Sore throat is killing me.
Stressed to the core.
Disappointed by the insensitivity of people around me.
Troubled by new problems arising.

Do you realise?
Do you understand??

Please come now I think I'm falling. I'm holding to all I think is safe. It seems I found the road to nowhere and I'm trying to escape. I yelled back when I heard thunder, but I'm down to one last breath... (quoted from the song One last breath by Creed)

Imperfection...

Been feeling like shit recently, especially after the Maths paper yesterday. I was just sitting inside the exam hall, waiting for time to pass. Had wanted to write something, but I couldn't even think of anything to write. I'm ashamed to even think about the fact that I'm supposed to have studied for the subject in this semester. What the fuck am I doing seriously. I've been doing anything but studying. I'm expecting my grades this semester to be a lot worse than last sem. Great, suddenly I felt like an idiot. I've disappointed my parents yet again. ARGH!

I'm absolutely disgusted by my inability to deliver the goods when the time calls for it. I'm such a disappointment. I've never felt so pressured before in my life. This pressure to perform is driving me crazy. Not just the exams, but EVERYTHING!! Even after my exams, the tasks waiting for me to complete are making me sick. Why do I land myself in so much shit?? Please dun expect me to give and deliver too much, for I'm doubting my ability now.

I'm not good enough.

I feel I've been beaten down by the words of men who have no grounds. I can't sleep beneath the trees of wisdom when your ax has cut the roots that feed them. Forked tongues in bitter mouths can drive a man to bleed from inside out... (quoted from the song What if by Creed)

Trust...

How honest can a person be? Everyone has a secret to hide, especially to their close ones. Mistrust causes misunderstanding and unnecessary conflicts. Flipping through the effective communication textbook, I learn about the various means of communications and how to identify and solve problems. Things such as misconceptions, perceptions, verbal and non-verbal communications etc. Well, not that I don't know anything abt these, but I've gained more knowledge by reading the textbook (erm... actually I dun have a choice cause the test is tmr). Being tactful in speeches and showing the right body language is essential, but I believe that being truthful to one another is even more important. Imagine how a person will feel upon knowing that he/she is cheated, especially by the ones most trusted. This kind of conflict is probably the hardest to resolve. I've always thought that I'm very sharp and sensitive to ppl's feelings, being able to identify and spot the lies between the lines and understand how they are feeling. Reading through the book simply validate and reinstate my point. There are some points which I'm not too sure though, made me questioned my judgement and perceptions. Oh well, I hope I'm right...

Never thought we'd be here, when my love for you was blind. But I couldn't make you see it, couldn't make you see it, that I loved you more than you'll ever know... (quoted from the song Blind by Lifehouse)

Not alone anymore...

Perhaps I'm really not used to this, suddenly I'm not alone anymore. Haha... I'm not complaining, just feeling a bit overwhelmed.
I'm such a lucky bastard. Wahahaha!

Kelly & me...


erm... Kelly & me again...


well... still Kelly & me...

不要你什么 只要你记得
谁曾是你最依偎的那个
那个人是我 也许走远了
为了看你多一次微笑 我什么都舍得
(quoted from the song 什么都舍得 by 戴佩妮)

Nowhere to stay...

Here I am again, shall bore ppl with my stupid posting. Even though I've got so many points, I still can't find a good place to stay!!?! How sad... I'm a man of principle, no matter how other ppl play bastard, I'll not be like them. I really dun wan to spoil any friendship. Oh well, seems like so many points also no use. What a waste of time and effort... sigh~ Is there no other alternatives??

And if you have a minute why don't we go? Talk about it somewhere only we know? This could be the end of everything, so why don't we go, somewhere only we know... (quoted from the song Somewhere only we know by Keane)