Happy Chinese New Year!

First of all, I'll like to wish everyone of u a very happy chinese new year!(mostly applicable to chinese only...haha) I've always like this festival because the hoiliday is long, I can collect "Ang Bao"s and there will be many goodies to be eaten!! It will also be a time for me to meet up with all my relatives. It has been a while since I last saw them. I wonder if my baby cousins can still recognise me..haha.

Spent my Friday night with my buddies at Wine Flair, a pub located somewhere near Thomson Plaza. The place was quite nice, got live music, big screen TV and a pool table, but too bad there's no matches on Friday and we din use the pool table at all. One thing I dun like abt the place is the strong smoking smell the moment I enter the place. Too bad there's no smoke free zone. Nonetheless, the 5 of us still stayed there till around 2a.m. before going to MacDonalds for supper. I haven't see the 5 of them since last year October, got lots of crap to talk abt. Steve is the same as usual, fascinating us with his exotic experiences these days, Patrick was love sick, needed some concern, Zhaoming is still the richest due to his air force job, and Zhongming doesn't seem that blur anymore and he seems very interested in Steve's stories...haha. In the end, we crapped till 4a.m. before Patrick drove us all home. Really enjoyed their company, kept my mind off something for a while.

Had to do some spring cleaning on Saturday. I was told to throw away my FYP of Sec 4 technical. NOOO!!! Over my dead body! I've spent 9 freaking months to complete it!! I can't bear to throw it away. I washed it till it looks clean and new again! I always feel proud of myself whenever I saw my artefact. Here's a glimsp of my FYP, CD rack:


Front view... still wet


View from the top


Interior design... check out the 'axis' which I made from the wood lathe machine


How it look like with CD


The handle that turn the 'wheel of fortune'

Drove to NTU with my brother in the evening to help bring some stuff over to hall. He's staying in hall 16, just beside my hall. Both of us haven't driven for quite sometime and we were super rusty...haha. Thank God it is an automatic car, if not we'll have more troubles with the vehicle. We took turns to drive, He drove to NTU and I drove back home. Haha, first time I drove on the expressway, at night somemore! Haha, quite a trilling experience. Back to the hall topic, I brought a freaking fridge that doesn't function properly to my room. Hopefully it will get cooler when the engine warmed up. I can't believe that the TV reception in my bro's room is so good. The image is damn clear! Urgh.. I think it is due to my location, can't do much abt it. Even his chair and pin up board is of nicer colour. His chair is red, while mine is dull brown. His board is light brown while mine is of darker shade. I prefer mine to be of brighter colour actually. Shucks!

恭喜啊恭喜 发啊发大财
好运当头 坏运呀永离开
恭喜呀大家万事都愉快
从今以后有福没悲哀
(quoted from the ChineseNew Year song 恭喜发财)

Melting point...

No matter how much resistance is put up, the outcome is still the same. I've failed miserably. The armour and defence around the heart of the kingdom shattered and fall into pieces too easily. The shockwave wasn't really powerful or destructive, however, its impact was enough to dissolve any strong front and reinforcement that was put up or called upon. It was probably a waste of time, but I still think that it was a gd attempt. I almost succeeded. Once again, I'm enchanted. However, I'm ashamed at the same time.

Cause she's bittersweet, she knocks me off of my feet. And I can't help myself, I don't want anyone else. She's a mystery, she's too much for me, but I keep comin' back for more... (quoted from the song Just the girl by The Click Five)

Jaded maverick...

I wonder what's so interesting abt who I like. I'm really quite sick of all the scandals circling around me. How am I saying the same old thing over and over again? Why dun anyone believe me? So what if I like this person? And so what if I've once like that person? I dun have to tell everyone who I like, in fact, I dun even have to tell anyone. There are things which I do not wish to say. Liking is one thing, taking action is another thing. What's the point of saying you liked someone without taking any action? I've learnt my lesson. Some things are better better kept as a secret to yourself. Dunno why, I'm becoming more scandalous as time progresses. Maybe I shd keep a distance from every gal. What puzzles me most is that I'm not very dashing and popular, so why am I the target of all these scandals?!? I guess it is because I'm still single. I think I may have to lie that I'm attached to escape from all these...haha.

Stop, turn, take a look around, at all the lights and sounds, let them bring you in. Slow burn, let it all fade out, pull the curtain down, I wonder where you've been? (quoted from the song Lights and sounds from Yellowcard)

Cancer man...

The most sensitive man and the weakest emotional type in all Zodiacs. Most Artists are Cancer. Cancer is controlled by the "Moon" and the moon change it's shape daily, so Cancer man's emotional and moods change all the time too. You will confuse with him and yet it is his constantly changes that "Charm" you. He never go to get what he wants directly, but he will wait for a chance and opportunity to do so. Once he gets what he wants, he will not lose it, except if he gets tired of it by himself.

The most sensitive man who cannot stand rejection. He cares what other people feel or think of him. He hates losing face and he tends to over protect himself, so sometimes people might think he is a cold person.

Gifted, creative, imaginative, is Cancer. A mystery and complexity play a major role in a life of a Cancer man. He could be very funny, very quiet, and suddenly very sad. Living with him could be very unexpected, for you will not know what is his next mood. If you like excitement and surprise, you have the right guy and never have a chance to get bored.

He thinks of his home as "nest" and it is the safest place for him. If he feels hurt or depress he will stay at home alone quietly. Once he feels better, he will come out of his retreat and lives normally again. Being a loser is not him.

It is so easy to fall in love with this guy because he is gentle and a very polite guy. His wit and creative mind could win your affection. He will come out from his nest to protect you even if he is not opening himself up to other people much. Not many people will win his heart. His security is only when he has money in his pocket. Once he feels secure then he might think of having a happy family. Even he likes to make and keep money, he is not stingy. Spending money is part of his good image, so he will be happy to spend money to take you out to a very expensive restaurant or buy jewellery for you, certainly when he has money.

He is possessive to everything that he thinks belong to him. Don't try to talk to another cute guy in front of him, he will get suspicion because he is not very secure or confident in himself for this kind of competition.

Once you know each other too much, he will start to look for new excitement, but not to worry for he will always think of you. If he thinks you are the true love for him, and you try once to disappear. You will be sure he will come and look for you.

He is a shy guy, but if he likes you. You can get up in the morning and see that he is in front of your house everyday till you go out with him, a very persistent guy.

He likes a secure, cheerful and lively woman, confident but at the same time always acts proper and appropriate. He likes a secure woman, but able to adjust to his rapid changes. A very difficult type to find woman indeed.

In the beginning, you and him will be so sugary sweet together and he will only think of you. This so "super romantic" will not last forever, so don't slip this chance. If you are the one who want his interest, then act and make yourself interesting. Be a supportive person and give him compliment sometimes, but not too much till he thinks you are not sincere.

Unlike many other Zodiacs, if he is mad then you better get out of that room. He will calm down by himself. Giving him a slight touch on his shoulders or concerned facial expression are enough. He loves his mother, so try to be his mother favourite, but do not act like his mother!

*I'm surprised by its accuracy...haha.

Open your eyes, look up to the skies and see. I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy, because I'm easy come, easy go, little high, little low. Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me, to me... (quoted from the song Bohemian rhapsody from Queen)

Fatal attraction...

Sometimes, things just dun make sense. No matter how much you think you know, there will always be somethings which you can't explain about yourself. You may want something very badly, but in actual fact, that thing doesn't suit you. You may have known it, but you simply ignore it and hope that things will turn out fine. This self denial usually wouldn't do you any good. Just accept it. It is after I've come to terms with this which made me give up on something which I once thought was perfect for me. I knew it all along, and I tried to change myself to be compatible. However, all these make me feel so unnatural and fake. So what exactly is the ultimate perfect match? One will never know. Even the best scientist and mathematician can't work out a formula and calculate the answer for you. All the 'by right' and attributes doesn't matter. As long as you are happy, all those doesn't apply at all. What seems to be the best doesn't always give you the most satisfaction. The right one does. And when you found the right one, that is actually the best. Take for instance, I've not spent a lot on the items to decorate my room, but the stuff still fall nicely in place. I dun think the others will have fitted so nicely. Dun only look at things from one perspective. You'll discover a lot more when you observe from different angles. Perhaps it is my understanding of this point which makes me attracted and entertained recently. Suddenly I dun feel so critical anymore. It is not easy being a perfectionist. I feel more relieved and relaxed now. It is definitely not my standard on things has dropped, but I've learnt not to care about what others think and just have things my own way.

With the lights out, it's less dangerous. Here we are now, entertain us. I feel stupid and contagious. Here we are now, entertain us. A mulatto, an albino, a mosquito, my libido... (quoted from the song Smells like teen spirit by Nirvana)

Unsettled...

I dunno why I'm always so tired. Seems like I can never get enough sleep. However, the truth is that I asked for it. I always sleep late. Why do I sleep late? I also dunno. My shit load has piled up as high as a mountain. I dun even know how to start clearing. It is piling at a faster rate than I'm clearing. So many times I wanted to do my work, but there's always something on my mind and I can't concentrate. I can't believe it... why am I feeling like this? To hell with my reservation and restrains. Urgh!! I hate myself for losing my focus so easily. It is not like I dunno what to expect, but I simply dun care or feel like starting.

A few things I seriously need to do first to get myself back to track:
1. Sleep
2. Make up my mind
3. Confirm my interest
4. Stop slacking
5. Focus

I've been guessing, I could have been guessin' wrong. You don't know me now. I kinda thought that you should somehow. Does that whole mad season got ya down? (quoted from the song Mad season by Matchbox 20)

Messed up...

I dunno how to explain what I'm feeling recently. I would like to say that I've closed my door, but it seems that I didn't close it properly... I didn't lock it. Now, the repercussion is that I'll invite unneccessary troubles and headaches, and cause myself to fall into a bigger pile of shit than last year. So many things going on in my mind that I dunno what should be the next step to take and what to expect next. One thing is for sure though, I couldn't decide, and my emotional side is getting the better of me. Drop me a hint or give me a clue to let me know what the hell is going on and what I should do...

I'm feeling that I dun belong increasingly. What the hell is the problem? Is it them or is it just me? I wonder how come these ppl can get together so well, when I've no intention to even try to start a conversation with some of them. By the way, PLEASE do not impose your ideas on me. The fact that you are ignorant doesn't mean that you should go around telling ppl abt what you perceive as right. I have no wish to argue with you. Just keep your ideas to yourself.

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun. Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won, so I took what's mine by eternal right, took your soul out into the night... (quoted from the song Goodbye my lover by James Blunt)

Mahjong madness...

Been playing mahjong quite often these few days. Felt guilty actually, cause my time could be better used flipping through the lecture notes and attempt my bloody tutorials. The fact that I'm winning my fren's money also makes me feel bad. Shall try to study from now on. I realise that i'm not studying as hard as I'm playing. Kk, shall try to strike a balance!

Spent my 2 weekends doing canvasing for CAC FOC. What can I say? So much input but so little output... Well, I'm glad that we are not doing that anymore. I'm still tryig to figure out the 'bonding' part that was supposed to be around also. Maybe I'm too anti-social, thats why I dun feel anything.

My buddy was telling me that he is finding it so hard to fall in love. He doesn't feel it as strongly as last time anymore. As I ponder upon it, I realise that I'm just like him. Let's just say that I'm afraid to fall in love. There's usually too much pain involved...

This time, this place. Misused, mistakes. Too long, too late, who was I to make you wait? Just one chance, just one breath, just in case there's just one left... (quoted from the song Far away by Nickelback)

New hall...

After dragging on for so many weeks, I've finally moved to the new hall 3!! I must say that the new hall really looks very nice.
It is also very hi-tech. I'm impressed by the electronic card key system. However, impressed is one thing, finding it useful is another thing. The card key is so bloody big and thick! Can't they make the stupid card smaller? Just like the Visa mini... The card is taking up too much space in my wallet, somemore have to carry it around at all times. The new room is much bigger than the old one. It is more spacious. The tables, cupboards and beds are bigger also. Got air con also, but I dun think I'll use it often. On top of that, it is brand new! The fact that I'm the first one to use it pleases me...haha. Shall leave a mark on them before I leave...hehe. Spent a lot of time moving the furnitures with my roomie till we finally found the ultimate arrangement: enough space to set up a mahjong table!! Now the only problem is to find a 'mahjong' table. Haha... I kinda like the location of my room. It is the nearest to the toilet, lounge and the bridge to block 3B, which means I can get to canteen 13 easier. It is also very near to the lift and is on the 4th floor, the highest level guys can stay. The whole place is quite airy. There's heater in every shower room now, which means there's no more standard timing for hot water. Haha, can bathe anytime I want now.


nice scenery


so cool! the knob flashes when u flash the card


see how big the card is


study, study, study!


bedtime!!

Overall, the new hall is bigger(double room), nicer and better than the old hall. However, the MAJOR problem is that it is too expensive. I still can't decide if I'll be staying next year. See how it goes...

I'm in the sky tonight. There I can keep by your side, watching the wide world riot and hiding out. I'll be coming home next year, into the sun we climb, climbing our wings will burn white. Everyone strapped in tight, we'll ride it out... (quoted from the song Next year by Foo Fighters)

Gold!!


Wow! Hall 3 boggle team won gold for the inter hall games!! The best part is that I'm in the winning team, so that means I should get a medal too....yay!! I was the reserve for the team together with the team manager, Aimee. Haha, we din contribute much to the team except winning the only match that we played in, which is against hall 14. It was actually a walk in the park as our opponents were quite weak. Nonetheless, it was quite interesting. Our captain, Shuyi purposely field us against hall 14 to let us gain experience. Ok lah... quite a gd experience. Managed to trashed the opponent with a score of 86-41 over 3 boards. To my liking, the 3 boards are small boards. I like to play small to medium boards as I can't really write very fast. Sometimes if i write too fast, I can't even recognise my own handwriting...haha. I guess I was quite lenient also lah, cos I din really challenge her words. As long as my score is greater than hers, I'm fine with it..heehee, I just can't be bothered.

The current team is made up of 4 seniors(Joon Leng, Alina, Shuyi & Bennie) and 1 freshie(Leroy), but 3 of the seniors are in their final year, which means that aimee and myself will most probably have to play next year due to our 'seniority'. Haha, the problem is whether I'll still want to play boggle next year. I dun even know if I'll still be staying in hall 3 next year. Without the 3 seniors, Bennie and Leroy will be our only experienced player. Aiyo, how to retain the title?? Dun care...

I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad. I got sunshine, in a bag. I'm useless, but not for long. The future is coming on... (quoted from the song Clint Eastwood by Gorillaz)

Live it...

Life is short and you've only got one, live well. You never know when illnesses or death will strike. No matter how safe and healthy you lead your life, you can only try to minimise the probability of it happening. I know this sounds very cliche, but it is true. I've said this umpteen times when I was working as a financial services consultant, but I never felt so strongly for it till a fren of mine got leukemia recently. It certainly doesn't feel gd to be diagnosed with cancer at this young age, in fact, he is even younger than me. Have you ever dreamt or imagined being struck by some critical illnesses? You'll feel lost, depressed, and you'll treasure whatever you have now more dearly. Thanks to advancement in medical science, chances of cancer being cured is much higher now, especially if it is detected early. Still, it will definitely be a painful process.

To this gd fren of mine: Get well soon dude, we'll be having fun again next semester. All of us will be supporting you. Lastly, you have been an excellent class rep!

Times are hard when things have got no meaning. I've found a key upon the floor, maybe you and I will not believe in the things we find behind the door... (quoted from the song Stand by me by Oasis)

Musk...

I'm quite tired of wearing a musk everytime. Always putting on a musk whenever I meet with people. Different people, different musk. Someone say that it is ok. We are just highly adaptable social creature who react differently to different people. In spite of the fact that u feel more natural towards certain people, u still dun act your usual self. It is all about this thing call 'image'. What exactly is the image that I want to portrait? I'm confused, lost, perturbed... The fact that I'm a perfectionist only make my image conscientious self more weary. Perhaps if i haven't cared about what other ppl think, my life can be a lot more simple. Even though I always say that simplicity is the best, I dun really want to have a simple life.

How ironic.

I see I'm not perfect, but that's all I see. Lost in a portrait, in a picture of me. This can't be everything I see, that my canvas is incomplete. Your colour's everything to me and my canvas will set me free... (quoted from the song Lost in a portriat by Trapt)