Undying...

I'm feeling terrible. There is obviously something missing, it feels wrong. I can't tell whether it is the mind, the heart or the soul. There is this feeling of emptiness which I am unable to fill no matter what I do. And as it seems, what I believe is right. If I dun make any move, nothing is going to change. What does it shows? Maybe it has been proven that my absence has been replaced. It hurts knowing how replaceable I am. Now, all I have is a few pieces of memory which reminds me of whatever good times I once had. Once the smile fades, the pain slowly creeps in. Sometimes so strong that I wish I could just destroy the memory all together. I am torn. Everything is so sudden. Far beyond my imagination. Is it just a nightmare? I can't seem to be able to wake up. Sometimes, I still wake up hoping that it was all a dream and that she is still beside me. I really miss her. Although there are times where we dun agree over certain issues, resulting in us quarrelling, I still love her as much as ever. No matter how bitter and how tough it is, I still hold on to that little bit of sweetness that bind us together in the first place. It is an undying love, a love that will never break. Sadly, it only works one way.

All you've ever wanted, was someone to truly look up to you. And six feet under water, I do... (quoted from the song The little things give you away by Linkin Park)