Reflections...

Usually I think I'm quite a gentleman, I treat most of my friends equally good and never flare up in front of them. I limit my use of vulgarities in front of gals and even gave them flowers on V'day. I dun think I've made many ppl angry before. I always try to play by the rules. I even give up my seat on buses and trains to elders and pregnant woman! I do know that I dun always have to be the nice guy. However when I show attitude, ppl say I'm anti-social or distant. Nice guy = no character = boring?? Or bad guy = attitude = unfriendly?? Hmm... dunno.

I do realise that I do not have to be too nice to any particular person, especially when that person treat you as a normal fren only. Like what a fren said, " if a person likes you, no matter what you do, that person will also like it, the same applies otherwise". Therefore, there's really no point in trying too hard to please someone. Somethings just can't be forced. Let nature takes its course. I think trying too hard may also irritate a person. It might cause the person to feel guilty of what you have done rather than appreciate your effort. As such, I've decided to not do anything drastic anymore after this. I suppose that's the way she likes it.

Somethings ain't what it seems. The water may look calm on the surface, but one can never tell what lies beneath. Therefore, it is almost impossible to find out certain things by looking at its cover. Although I may give an uninterested look, I may be just concealing my feelings...haha! Courtyard 3 everyday!

With pride, honour, truth, sincerity and love, 24/02/2006, Friday, 1700hrs

To the love I left my conscience pressed, between the pages of the Bible in the drawer. “What did it ever do for me," I say. It never calls me when I'm down. Love never wanted me... (quoted from the song XO by Fall Out Boys)