Dear Blog...

No one else understands me better than you do. You have provided me with the space and "ears" to express how I feel. You have been an excellent confidant, and I know that my secrets wun be leaked out unless I choose to. However, there's only as much you can do. I still need someone who can commute with me, laugh with me, and to agree with me. So many things I have wanted to pen down, but I dunno how and where to start. I'm starting to feel the pressure again. The rat race has started long ago. If I dun start to panic and do something abt it now, I'll never be able to catch up. The term "play hard, study smart" doesn't seem to apply to me anymore. I have to "play hard, study smart AND HARD".

Stupid horoscope says that cancerians make great artists and performers because they are very emotional and complex. Perhaps I shd just go take part in some singing or acting competition and have a shot at stardom. Then dun have to study so hard anymore. HAHA, like so easy like that. Come on Jared, wake up your freaking idea!!

There's another Chinese saying, 红颜祸水, which means women are nothing but trouble. Can't say that i agree totally. They do bring warm and laughter also. So, in spite of the headaches, heartaches, lack of sleep, loss of appetite and necessary worries, I'm asking for it. Hah! What an idiot...

Yours faithfully,
Stupid Awoken Fool
19th Feb 2006

最痴情的男人像海洋
爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航
到你觉得我给不了的天堂
(quoted from the song 男人.海洋 by 周传雄)