Messed up...

I dunno how to explain what I'm feeling recently. I would like to say that I've closed my door, but it seems that I didn't close it properly... I didn't lock it. Now, the repercussion is that I'll invite unneccessary troubles and headaches, and cause myself to fall into a bigger pile of shit than last year. So many things going on in my mind that I dunno what should be the next step to take and what to expect next. One thing is for sure though, I couldn't decide, and my emotional side is getting the better of me. Drop me a hint or give me a clue to let me know what the hell is going on and what I should do...

I'm feeling that I dun belong increasingly. What the hell is the problem? Is it them or is it just me? I wonder how come these ppl can get together so well, when I've no intention to even try to start a conversation with some of them. By the way, PLEASE do not impose your ideas on me. The fact that you are ignorant doesn't mean that you should go around telling ppl abt what you perceive as right. I have no wish to argue with you. Just keep your ideas to yourself.

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun. Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won, so I took what's mine by eternal right, took your soul out into the night... (quoted from the song Goodbye my lover by James Blunt)