Lonewolf...

Have I lost touch with the outside world? Why do I feel so disconnected from the world? What's the latest news that everyone is concerned abt? I dunno. Please dun ask me anything abt current affairs, I have not been reading the news recently. I've not even explore the i-mode function in my phone, it's supposed to update me on the latest news.

I realised that I do prefer, in fact, I enjoy being alone. I feel more at liberty. No restrain and no rules, just my own space. I can scream my lungs out without fearing that I'll disturb others, I can study when I feel like anytime without enduring the constant nagging from my parents, I can stone and mull over things without caring if other ppl think I'm crazy, I can exercise at my own pace and will without considering the weak, I can be selfish and have all the things to myself without sharing with others, I can do my own things without being disturb by others. Maybe I am antisocial, I dunno. However I think that unless you are doing projects or playing games, almost everything can be done alone. Nonetheless, having said that, I admit that I'm still quite heavily reliant on my frens. Afterall, they are the ones who entertain me when I'm bored. This is so contradicting. What I want actually differs from what I am. I feel like a lonewolf. One who is competent and able to hunt on its own, and yet belong to a larger wolf pack. Perhaps that is how all animals behave, they are inseperable from their main group or family. If I were to break away, I may not be able to survive well. I have doubts abt my adaptability. I guess I shd be more cordial and gregarious.

Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness? Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin, I make the right moves but I'm lost within... (quoted from the song By myself by Linkin Park)