Where have all the flowers gone...

Seems like I've toned down. I used to hate the 'B's, 'H's, 'P's, and 'F's a lot. Now, I'm having meals with them quite frequently. For a few times, I was the only freshie in the group. Where have the others gone? I feel out of place. I dun understand what are they talking about sometimes. Anyway, I dun really care. I'm jus contented eating my plate of food. Yesterday YB tried to start a conversation with me. He asked me why I didn't chase any gals in hall. That's interesting, cause I was talking to a fren earlier about the same topic also. Why do I have to go after someone from hall? Obviously we share different views. I really dun like the idea of seeing each other so often everyday. I dun want to be tied down, I want my own breathing room and yet have someone there for me to love. I dun want my every movement to be watched everytime, everyday. I dun need a study partner or a guardian, I need a soul mate. One who is there when I need support, and one who makes me feel happy. Is that too much to ask for? I'm actually easily contented.

Where have the others gone? I still remember the times I play escort for CL, Char, and Dine a few months back. Go lecture, go popular, go home, go canteen. Now that all 3 are attached, all have forgotten about me. I still haven claim my escort fees yet!$5 an hr!! Clem shd be with CL, WQ is always busy. Long time never talk to JJ and SG also. The clique has shrunk to just Aimee and SY, so few ppl. How boring. I prefer my roomie. He can entertain me better.

在童话很远的世界漂流
完美是个多奢侈的念头
终於搜集够多的伤口
才懂 八十分的幸福已足够
(quoted from the song 瘦瘦的 by 梁静茹)